Just one of those days

I hate days like this. I know as soon as I wake up that it's gonna be a day like this. I worry about everything, I feel like I'm gonna loose people. I feel like I scare people away. I feel like I'm trapped in myself and my thoughts. I feel like I don't deserve anything or anyone. It's like someone is telling me "yepp, you know these people gonna get tired of you, just prepare for it" .

And I just wanna be self-destructive and run away from everyone before THEY actually are leaving me.

And I can't talk about it to anyone because I just sound weird. And I scare them away even more.

At the same time I want people to know.

I'M WAY TOO WEIRD !

I know tomorrow is gonna be better tho.